Song Meaning (Vanilla Twilight)

"Vanilla Twilight"

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist deep in thought because when
I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
(Tonight, tonight, tonight...)

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear:
"Oh darling, I wish you were here"

Lyrics Meaninng:

The stars lean down to kiss you, (the GF or wife has passed away; could also mean they broke up and he wishes her the best life. I think it means he has passed away and he can't physically kiss her, so the stars represent him)

And I lie awake and miss you. (he is still alive and yearns for her or he is no longer in this world, but spiritually near here)

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere, (could be a literal meaning and/or means he wants to be intoxicated or he's ascended to the clouds)

Because I’ll doze off safe and soundly (after this act, he will forget about his present state of mind)

But I’ll miss your arms around me (but no matter how much desensitized he becomes, he can't escape the physical reality of yearning and missing her caress and embrace, “arms around me”)

I’d send a postcard to your dear (it would be easy to send a postcard)

Because I wish you were here (and the irony is that he can’t because she has passed away or they have broken up and lost contact or he isn't in this world because he's dead, but why would he wish she was dead too, am confused)

I'll watch the night turn light blue (this suggest she has not passed away, he is up waiting for her return as night turns to daylight; or he is beyond the point of reason and doesn’t sleep because he is so deeply saddened and in deep remorse. This is gives him “repose” for peace and tranquility by being where they were before and repeating the same activity) (this also means he is sitting next to her, she can't see him, but he's there)

But it’s not the same without you, (this suggest they have stayed up before together from dawn to sunrise or sunset to dusk or some kind of activity) (they can't physically be touching)

Because it takes two to whisper quietly (this doesn’t mean quietness in any way, but they were so involved in each other that nothing mattered external them because they were in their own quiet world) (again, can't touch)

The silence isn’t so bad, till I look at my hands and feel sad (this culminates to point no matter how much he tries to forget, he can’t escape reality) (separation of two different dimensions or world)

Because the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly (yearning and reminiscing again for her touch and he’s dying from the pain and agony inside)

I’ll find repose in new ways, though I haven’t slept in two days, (this backs “I'll watch the night turn light blue” and he hasn’t slept in two days by watching the turning of the sky between the soft light just after sunset or just before sunrise, twilight. And that he will find some other way to reminisce about her)

Because cold nostalgia chills me to the bone (nostalgia shouldn’t be cold. Sth must have violently happened between them or to her/him)

But drenched in vanilla twilight, I'll sit on the front porch all night (going back to “I'll watch the night turn light blue” [twilight]. Sitting on the front porch has connotation for waiting, looking or reflecting) (twilight is when barely visible light appears after sunset or before sunrise. this suggest he descended from the sky and is sitting next to her, but she can't see him but he can see her. So she is also looking at the night turn light blue)

Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you (reflecting and reminiscing about her)

I don't feel so alone (having her in his memory keeps his sanity together)

As many times as I blink, I’ll think of you tonight, I’ll think of you tonight. (he is wanting to die as there may not be a tomorrow or he is only on earth for one or two nights and needs to go back)

When violet eyes get brighter (He is dead and in heaven or having a different mental conscious state of mind)

And heavy wings grow lighter (he becomes an angel but doesn't want to leave her as he is emotionally burdened, but eventually his pain is slowly lifted or his heavy burden he once had has been lifted)

I’ll taste the sky and feel alive again (means he is an angel ascending to the heaven to meet her, but never does or he has found someone new and his live is now renewed or he ascends to the sky again and is reborn)

And I’ll forget the world that I knew (means he is going to the heaven, or he is the one who has passed away and she hasn’t or he is with someone new and slowly forgetting his past) (reborn)

But I swear I won’t forget you (no matter what, she will always have a place in his heart)

Oh if my voice could reach back through the past
I'll whisper in your ear
Oh darling I wish you were here (these last three verses mean he is already in heaven and she is still alive, or he is still yearning for the impossible in the present sense, “reach back through the past”) (or, he wishes he was still in the past because he has passed away)

Vanilla Twilight - my interpretation is he came from heaven to visit her one last time

Dewa Athena

SMAN 3 held a class meeting event called DEWA ATHENA. It's a class vs class sports championship held in Lapangan Bali, there was dodgeball, futsal, basketball, etc. My class X IPA 3 competed and basically lost in all games except basketball, I was supposed to join the futsal tournament but I forgot the schedule and came late( that's probably why my class lost lol :D), I said sorry to my friends and they said that they had forgiven me, I felt so guilty :(.

Education

The education system in Indonesia is a big mess, but you still have to follow it since that is the only way you can reach the top in Indonesia. I think education is very important because our people are basically not smart enough compared to people in other countries (except for some people, but most people are not smart enough in Indonesia). We can't blame the kids for having a bad score, it's our education system that causes Indonesia to have a lot of retarded people and rude people. So, is education important? yes, is our education system right? no, can we do something about it? not right now, only people who are on top can change things, so? reach the top :)

My Holiday

 During the new year Holiday, my family didn't have a vacation plan so I just stayed home. When the New Year's Eve was about to come, my friends from middle school invited me to a new year party in Jakarta. I went to the party and it was super fun, there was a swimming pool, basket ball ring, music instrument, etc. I was espescially happy because i met my friends that i haven't met in a long time. I went home at 7 am in the morning and my family was still asleep lol :).

Amazing Places

 Brief synthesis
The Borobudur Temple Compounds is one of the greatest Buddhist monuments in the world, and was built in the 8th and 9th centuries AD during the reign of the Syailendra Dynasty. The monument is located in the Kedu Valley, in the southern part of Central Java, at the centre of the island of Java, Indonesia.
The main temple is a stupa built in three tiers around a hill which was a natural centre: a pyramidal base with five concentric square terraces, the trunk of a cone with three circular platforms and, at the top, a monumental stupa. The walls and balustrades are decorated with fine low reliefs, covering a total surface area of 2,520 m². Around the circular platforms are 72 openwork stupas, each containing a statue of the Buddha.
The vertical division of Borobudur Temple into base, body, and superstructure perfectly accords with the conception of the Universe in Buddhist cosmology. It is believed that the universe is divided into three superimposing spheres, kamadhatu, rupadhatu, and arupadhatu, representing respectively the sphere of desires where we are bound to our desires, the sphere of forms where we abandon our desires but are still bound to name and form, and the sphere of formlessness where there is no longer either name or form. At Borobudur Temple, the kamadhatu is represented by the base, the rupadhatu by the five square terraces, and the arupadhatu by the three circular platforms as well as the big stupa. The whole structure shows a unique blending of the very central ideas of ancestor worship, related to the idea of a terraced mountain, combined with the Buddhist concept of attaining Nirvana.
The Temple should also be seen as an outstanding dynastic monument of the Syailendra Dynasty that ruled Java for around five centuries until the 10th century.
The Borobudur Temple Compounds consists of three monuments: namely the Borobudur Temple and  two smaller temples situatued to the east on a straight axis to Borobudur. The two temples are Mendut Temple, whose depiction of Buddha is represented by a formidable monolith accompanied by two Bodhisattvas, and Pawon Temple, a smaller temple whose inner space does not reveal which deity might have been the object of worship. Those three monuments represent phases in the attainment of Nirvana.
The temple was used as a Buddhist temple from its construction until sometime between the 10th and 15th centuries when it was abandoned. Since its re-discovery in the 19th century and restoration in the 20th century, it has been brought back into a Buddhist archaeological site.
Criterion (i): Borobudur Temple Compounds with its stepped, unroofed pyramid consisting of ten superimposing terraces, crowned by a large bell-shaped dome is a harmonious marriage of stupas, temple and mountain that is a masterpiece of Buddhist architecture and monumental arts.
Criterion (ii): Borobudur Temple Compounds is an outstanding example of Indonesia’s art and architecture from between the early 8th and late 9th centuries that exerted considerable influence on an architectural revival between the mid-13th and early 16th centuries.
Criterion (vi): Laid out in the form of a lotus, the sacred flower of Buddha, Borobudur Temple Compounds is an exceptional reflection of a blending of the very central idea of indigenous ancestor worship and the Buddhist concept of attaining Nirvana. The ten mounting terraces of the entire structure correspond to the successive stages that the Bodhisattva has to achieve before attaining to Buddhahood.
Integrity
The boundaries contain the three temples that include the imaginary axis between them. Although the visual links are no longer open, the dynamic function between the three monuments, Borobudur Temple, Mendut Temple, and Pawon Temple is maintained.
The main threat to the ensemble is from development that could compromise the extraordinary relationship between the main monument and its wider setting and could also affect the Outstanding Universal Value of the property. The approach to the property has to a degree already been compromised by weak developmental regulations.
Tourism also exerts considerable pressure on the property and its hinterland.
There is a growing rate of deterioration of the building stone, the cause of which needs further research. There is also a small degree of damage caused by unsupervised visitors.
The eruption of Mount Merapi is also considered as one of the potential threats because of its deposit acidic ash as happened in 2010.
Authenticity
The original materials were used to reconstruct the temple in two phases in the 20th century: after the turn of the century and more recently (1973-1983). Mostly original materials were used with some additions to consolidate the monument and ensure proper drainage which has not had any significant adverse impact on the value of the property. Though the present state of Borobudur Temple is the result of restorations, it retained more than enough original material when re-discovered to make a reconstruction possible.
Nowadays the property could be used as a Buddhist pilgrimage site. Its overall atmosphere is, however, to a certain degree compromised by the lack of control of commercial activities and the pressure resulting from the lack of an adequate tourism management strategy.
Protection and management requirements
The protection of the property is performed under Indonesian Law No. 11/2010 concerning Cultural Heritage and its surrounding cultural landscape. It is executed under a National Strategic Area and the Spatial Management Plan by the Ministry of Public Works in accordance with the Law concerning Spatial Management No. 26/2007 and Governmental Regulation No. 26/2008 concerning National Spatial Planning and will be enforced further by another presidential regulation regarding the Management for the Borobudur National Strategic Area that is still being drafted by the Ministry of Public Works.
The legal and institutional framework for the effective management of the property is regulated by a Presidential Decree Number 1 Year 1992. The established zones within the World Heritage property are respectively under the responsibility of the Borobudur Heritage Conservation Office under Ministry of Education and Culture, of state-owned institute PT. Taman Wisata Candi Borobudur under the Ministry of Enterprises, and of the local governments (Magelang Regency and Central Java Province). A study on the integrated management of Borobudur Temple Compounds has been conducted, including attention for the ecosystem, social and cultural aspects, ecotourism, public and private partnership and organisational feasibility study. This study is the basis of the still to be developed visitor management approach.
In order to ensure consistency between the 1992 Presidential Decree and the 1972 JICA Master Plan zone-system indicated in the World Heritage nomination dossier and to strengthen the regulations regarding development, a New Presidential Regulation is still being formulated by a Coordinating Board (14 Ministries and local authorities as well as representatives of local communities) and by formalizing the role of the proposed Management Board into the wider zones. In addition, the protection of the property has been ensured by the regular financial contribution by the national budget.
Monitoring programs has been effectively executed to monitor the growing rate of deterioration of building stone and also damage by unsupervised visitors. A research is being conducted to determine the long- term impact of deposit acidic ash of eruption of Mount Merapi to set further protection and conservation management of the property. Furthermore, a risk preparedness plan will be formulated in 2012.
The Borobudur Heritage Conservation Office has conducted community development programs targeting especially at the youth to raise their awareness. In improving and empowering local community as specialist guide for Borobudur Temple Compounds, several training programs have been conducted. The community development related to economical sector (small enterprises that produce traditional handicrafts, culinaries, etc) have already being conducted by the municipalities of Magelang Regency and Central Java Province.

My Daily Life

Today, I am going to talk about my daily life. Usually I wake up at 5am in the morning, pray subuh, take a shower, and go to school. At school, I'm usually so bored that i fell asleep during class. At recess, I hangout with my friends at the school canteen, and went back when the bell rings. When the second recess bell rang I go to the mosque across the school to pray Dzuhur. After the last lesson (time to go home), I always play with my friends before going home. At home I don't have a lot of things to do so I usually just relax and play games or some sort. I usually go to sleep at 11pm and to the whole thing al over.

My Extracurricular.... KANST

I joined KANST in SMAN 3, KANST is an extracurricular made to secure school events. In KANST, we did some physical exercise such as, running, push ups, sit ups etc to strenghten our body and build up our muscle since we are supposed to fight for what is right. KANST teaches us how to fight and how to defend ourselves, that is why KANST has a sparring session. KANST is a place for us to have a healthy body, clear mind , good social life.